Let’s jump right in, shall we?
- One of my goals last year was to be more badass, in my personal life and my sewing. To me, that meant asking for what I wanted, taking some risks, and doubting myself less. I’ve succeeded in some areas there (like making more experimental projects, even if they don’t always turn out, and putting myself out there in the sewing community a bit more). On the other hand, I’m not any braver about asking shops or pattern companies about collaborations, giveaways, or reviews, and that was something I meant to experiment with more.
- Sewing and blogging are stress-relief, and a source of stress. I’ve always known this about myself, but it has been particularly clear this year. I’ve got a tendency to double-down on things when I’m getting stressed, and channel my anxiety into even more side projects. That’s how the Better Pictures Project started (worried before a job interview), how I ended up at the CSC (burned out from Sewcialists), and how I ended up restarting the Sewcialists (burned out by the CSC FB community)! At some points this year, I felt like a major idiot for pouring hours of work into organising 3 posts a week for the Sewcialists and writing 2 posts a week for this blog, all the while having panic attacks about basic stuff in life!.My husband helped me remind me that my hobbies aren’t silly or a distraction though – they are a major part of how I define myself and what I like about myself. So, long story short, I’m back on anxiety meds after a brief stint years ago, and I’m hoping that I can spend more time enjoying my hobbies and less time obsessing about things outside my control!
- Guilt about sewing is bullshit. The topic of guilt comes up again and again in the sewing world online – guilt over our stashes, buying fabric, pattern hoarding, and guilt over sewing too much or not enough for ourselves or others. My friends, it is a waste of time. It’s one of those pressures we put entirely on ourselves, when we wouldn’t ever judge someone else as harshly. My husband spends more time and money on his hobbies than I do, and let me tell you, comic book shops are not full of people saying “I really shouldn’t buy another one until I get rid of the last thing I bought!” Let’s just enjoy our hobby, ok?
- The sewing community is absolutely amazing. I mean, we all knew this, right? But the supportiveness and positivity just blows my mind year after year. I’m so grateful that anyone reads my ramblings here, and the comments and pep talks really brighten my day! I love reading blogs and checking Instagram, and having such amazing online friends! Thank you.
I wasn’t sure what to say for my 5th reflection, so I asked my husband, and here’s what he said in a nutshell:
- I’ve been more adventurous this year;
- I still feel pressure around deadlines;
- I’ve been trying new things and revisiting old hobbies and techniques (like sewing felt ornaments for the holidays, which was actually the first thing I posted 6 years ago!);
- and moving my sewing room from a spare bedroom to the dining room downstairs was a great decision! It means I can hang out with Jamie while I sew, or sew while he sleeps in on the weekend, and I have plenty of space to spread out!
He knows me well!
Overall, my sewing this year has been more of the same (basic knits in bright prints!) and I’m looking forward to continuing what I love in 2018! How about you?